EPF: 11%
Insurance + Takaful: 9%
Dad’s car loan: 11%
Mum’s 家用: 9%
Savings: 15.6%

Sub-total: 55.6%

Perkeso and Tax: 1.7%
Child sponsorship: 1.5%
Entertainment: 10%
Food and beverage: 3.1%
Car Fuel: 3.1%

All others: 25%

That means more than half my monthly earnings are spent on family and future uses. If I were to work elsewhere with this number, I am clearly in deep shits, as I will need to accommodate lodging, public transportation and extra food and beverage costs in the “All others” part. And I wouldn’t have any extra fund to satisfy myself with tours and gadgets. Anyway, I will definitely look forward to any better job opportunities with greater earnings

Dream 1:
I want to travel to every part of the world, starting from ASEAN, to Asia, to Europe, to Africa, to America, and to Australia.

So far, I have done Phuket. The next trip will be to Taiwan. I have planned trips to Hong Kong and Chiang Mai in 2011.

Next in the list: Korea, Japan and Australia.

I have had bad experience going to tour with other people. I am going to try backpack travelling by myself. I can go anywhere by myself. Simple and fast. I don’t have to accommodate whoever for the trip. Besides, it would seems quite hard to find partners for overseas travel anyway.

Dream 2:
To realize Prim3 Software Corp. I am finding hard for a job in IT/software development. If I cannot get it in Kuching, I will move to KL. Staying in my current company will do me no good for my future. No doubt my family and friends are all asking me to reconsider quitting, because they say my company is very stable, my job very secure, good pay, etc. Unfortunately, I can’t feel any passion here at all, simply because the works I am doing now really does not match my interest. I feel very tired and bored everyday doing jobs that I don’t like. I need the challenge and “kick” that only IT can give me. I need to feel myself again. I don’t really care and don’t really want to know what others think. It’s my life after all. I decide what I want to do.

Once I get a good job offer, it will mean bye bye to my current company.

First step: Buy www.prim3soft.com -Done!-

Dream 3:
Buy a new and bigger house for my parents. Alas, there will only be two parents in a lifetime. So, now is my time to give a good life to them. My target is a double storey semi-detached house. I am looking hard for a new house in a good neighborhood. So far the ones i see is MJC area, Stutong, and Riveria area. Those places are quite far from Kuching city center, which can be a problem. Kuching city itself is already quite packed and congested so I doubt there will be any new housing estates being built. Never-the-less, I will keep on looking.

Obsolete Dream:
Last time, I had always thought of having my own family. But then, it does not matter any more, nor do I care about it any more. I also don’t have time for those any more. Instead of filling my life with miseries of waiting and chasing, I rather fill my life achieving the dreams above. As a matter of fact, I also don’t really want to feel the pain if one day I had to lose someone I love. This dream is officially erased and closed!

Conclusion:
Those are about all of the dreams I have for now. I am working hard to achieve all of them in the shortest amount of time. I don’t want to leave this world with regrets behind. I know I can do it. As my MMU best friend said: He believes I can fly.

Promise: The guy will NEVER, EVER go out ALONE with another girl who already had a boyfriend.

Vow: The guy will NEVER, EVER become too close with another girl who already had a boyfriend.

Disasters 1: A well-kept promise went broken after 8 long years by the same person who made it.

Disasters 2: 8 years ago, it happened. 8 years later, the same thing happened again. Will this become a cycle and keeps on repeating every 8 years?

Disasters 3: The revealing of the truth resulted in a great feeling of disheartened. The cause of this feeling is best left unknown forever.

Disasters 4: Everything changed now. A clear line needs to be drawn now to prevent any further side-effects.

Sent from my Nokia phone

There was once this great friend of mine. I can’t actually remember how did I get to know her. I think I knew her not long after I started working in TM, which makes it around 3-4years. She was always just a friend, until sometime last year, where I got to contact her more through MSN. As time passed, we got to know each other better. We contacted more often, through calls, sms, meetups, etc. She was a great friend. She even introduced someone to me whom at one point, …….. (anyway, things didn’t really work out that way).

Today, I was shocked by a sudden news that she had gone. She had caught up with the dengue virus which made her very sick. I went to visit her once, at the hospital but was not able to see her that time. I was always hoping that she would get well soon. I saw people posting on her facebook that she was getting better. I never expected this sudden U-turn.

I didn’t go and meet her for the last time when I had the chance. I feel very sad. I kinda miss her lectures, miss her facebook messages, miss her naggings, miss her smiles. In fact, tears are starting to come out from my eyes now as I type this.

I can only wish her soul can find peace. May you rest in peace, QKN.

刚搬进这个房子的那天，她整理完全部的东西，最后拿出一个非常精致的玻璃瓶，对他说道：“亲爱的，3个月内，你让我每哭一次，我就往里面加一滴水，代表我的眼泪。要是它满了，我就收拾我的东西离开这房子。”

男人不以为然，有点纳闷：“你们女人也太神经质了吧！就这么不信任我么，那还有什么可谈？我让你搬过来和我一起生活，是为了照顾你，不是欺负你的！”

女人说：“好男人不会让心爱的女人受一点点伤，我会记录下我为什么流泪，不会是莫名其妙的。”

“那好吧，抱抱～！”

两个月后，女人把那瓶子给男人看，说：“已经满一半了，在两个月内，我们是否有必要查看一下是什么问题呢？”说完递了一本精致的小笔记本给男人。

男人没有马上打开来看，他的表情里有一丝惊讶，还有点哭笑不得的意味，似乎没有想到女人的眼泪可以这么多，盛得这么快，又觉得女人是小题大作了，但是很可爱。

他打开本子开始看，惊讶女人怎么写了那么多。男人一边看着，女人一边说话：“第一次吵架，是在第3天，而且还是一大早，你刚醒来有点懵懂，挤的牙膏不知道怎么的飞到镜子上了，那是我刚擦干净的，我说你连挤牙膏都不会啊，你就来脾气了，然后吵起来……”

男人沉默着。女人继续说：“有天晚上我让你帮洗下那几件衣服，因为水太凉，你只顾着玩游戏迟迟不肯动，后来吵起来，我很失望你忘记了我的生理期不能碰冷水，委屈……”

“还有一次，我很累了，你还不肯去洗澡睡觉，明明知道我特敏感，有点神经衰弱，哪怕一点点敲键盘的声音都能让我难以入睡，我一情急就说了你这个人自私的话，我们吵起来，你说了一大堆辩论自己不自私自私的人是我之后甩门出去上网通宵，我打你电话你没拿我又不敢自己一个人去找你……”

女人这时候有点激动了，眼球开始泛红，说：“还有一次……” 男人打断了她的话，“亲爱的，别说了……”

沉默…长久的沉默……

还是女人打破了沉默：“是不是我们真的不合适？如果是这样，结婚了还是会离婚吧？我们的个性都那么强，谁都不肯退让。”

气氛有点尴尬。

本子里记录的事情都是那么细小的事情，每次吵架的原因都是那么的简单，男人看着这本子，似乎在体会着女人的心情，大男子是不会去计较这些小事，原本觉得每次和好之后都没事，女人就爱拿这些来说事，但是当他认真去看的时候，他也开始难过了，女人很细心，把事件、心情都写了，还自己总结了一下原因。原来最微小的事情累积起来是很让人痛苦的，他看得出，女人从失望慢慢变成绝望。

他想，大概是因为每次吵架，两人都是喜欢在吵架中找出对方不爱自己的证据。他突然意识到，这是个很严重的问题！而且每次吵架，双方都是在心情不稳定的时候，就是还有别的烦心事的时候，把不好的情绪带进了两个人的生活里。

“亲爱的别难过……”男人终于说话了：“我请个假，我们去旅游吧。”

他们去了第一次一起旅游的地方，太多美好的回忆被唤起，原来彼此是那么深深地爱着对方，这时的女人特别温柔，这时的男人特别体贴。

“亲爱的，你还认为我们结婚的话，会离婚么？”男人问。

“我想不是我们不合适，像现在，我们是那么快乐，一切都那么美好，可是一回到我们的现实生活里，为什么就变了呢？”

“亲爱的，难道我们现在不在现实里吗？”

“……”女人楞了。

“因为那时候我们都把注意力集中在负面的事物上并且放大了那些负面的心情。并且喜欢找对方不爱自己的证据，然后彼此个性都很倔不肯服输太要面子。”

女人觉得确实是如此，原来，双方只是需要一点点忍让，一点点包容。男人带她回顾这初次旅游的地点，是真的用心了，想起那时候他们在一起还不久，为了让对方觉得自己好，都表现出自己最好的一面。

“还有半个月，如果那瓶子还是半瓶，那么，亲爱的，嫁给我吧！”

女人钻进男人怀里笑开了颜

后来他们结婚了。很少再吵架。如果粗心的男人不小心碰掉了杯子，女人不会再开口就骂，因为在女人开口之前，男人已经在道歉，说对不起，都是我不小心的，赔两个给老婆！老婆尽管去选你喜欢的！女人就笑了，然后说，不用买啦，反正还有杯子，再说也不都是你的错，怪我自己没把杯子放好，让你碰到啦！

原来真的没有合适不合适，只有珍惜不珍惜，能一起走一起进步是幸福的！

So my shopping list for this time:

1. 250GB WD Notebook Hard disk. To be used for my Xbox 360.
2. Another pair of pants. Only got one new one this year.
3. Some CNY decorations. Only if I see any nice ones.
4. 8GB thumb drive as requested by LLC
5. And finally, if $ permits, 1TB hard disk and a new mouse!

Hopefully my ang pows this year can help me cover all those expenses else I am really going broke.

一天,一个盲人带着他的导盲犬过街时,一辆大卡车失去控制,直冲过来,盲人当场被撞死,他的导盲犬为了守卫主人,也一起惨死在车轮底下。

主人和狗一起到了天堂门前。

一个天使拦住他俩,为难地说:“对不起,现在天堂只剩下一个名额,你们两个中必须有一个去地狱。”

主人一听,连忙问:“我的狗又不知道什么是天堂,什么是地狱,能不能让我来决定谁去天堂呢？”

天使鄙视地看了这个主人一样,皱起了眉头,她想了想,说:“很抱歉,先生,每一个灵魂都是平等的,你们要通过比赛决定由谁上天堂。”

主人失望地问:“哦,什么比赛呢？”

天使说:“这个比赛很简单,就是赛跑,从这里跑到天堂的大门,谁先到达目的地,谁就可以上天堂。不过,你也别担心,因为你已经死了,所以不再是瞎子,而且灵魂的速度跟肉体无关,越单纯善良的人速度越快。”

主人想了想,同意了。

天使让主人和狗准备好,就宣布赛跑开始。她满心以为主人为了进天堂,会拼命往前奔,谁知道主人一点也不忙,慢吞吞地往前走着。更令天使吃惊的是,那条导盲犬也没有奔跑,它配合着主人的步调在旁边慢慢跟着,一步都不肯离开主人。天使恍然大悟:原来,多年来这条导盲犬已经养成了习惯,永远跟着主人行动,在主人的前方守护着他。可恶的主人,正是利用了这一点,才胸有成竹,稳操胜券,他只要在天堂门口叫他的狗停下就可以了。

天使看着这条忠心耿耿的狗,心里很难过,她大声对狗说:“你已经为主人献出了生命,现在,你这个主人不再是瞎子,你也不用领着他走路了,你快跑进天堂吧!”

可是,无论是主人还是他的狗,都像是没有听到天使的话一样,仍然慢吞吞地地往前走,好像在街上散步似的。

果然,离终点还有几步的时候,主人发出一声口令,狗听话地坐下了,天使用鄙视的眼神看着主人。

这时,主人笑了,他扭过头对天使说:“我终于把我的狗送到天堂了,我最担心的就是它根本不想上天堂,只想跟我在一起……所以我才想帮它决定,请你照顾好它。”

天使愣住了。

主人留恋地看着自己的狗,又说:“能够用比赛的方式决定真是太好了,只要我再让它往前走几步,它就可以上天堂了。不过它陪伴了我那么多年,这是我第一次可以用自己的眼睛看着它,所以我忍不住想要慢慢地走,多看它一会儿。如果可以的话,我真希望永远看着它走下去。不过天堂到了,那才是它该去的地方,请你照顾好它。”

说完这些话,主人向狗发出了前进的命令,就在狗到达终点的一刹那,主人像一片羽毛似的落向了地狱的方向。他的狗见了,急忙掉转头,追着主人狂奔。满心懊悔的天使张开翅膀追过去,想要抓住导盲犬,不过那是世界上最纯洁善良的灵魂,速度远比天堂所有的天使都快。

所以导盲犬又跟主人在一起了,即使是在地狱,导盲犬也永远守护着它的主人。

天使久久地站在那里,喃喃说道:“我一开始就错了,这两个灵魂是一体的,他们不能分开……”
　　
最后，我要说：这个世界上,真相只有一个,可是在不同人眼中,却会看出不同的是非曲直。这是为什么呢？其实,道理很简单,因为每个人看待事物,都不可能站在绝对客观公正的立场上,而是或多或少地戴上有色眼镜,用自己的经验、好恶和道德标准来进行评判,结果就是——我们看到了假象。

Taken using camera. How can the cursor be so big?!

Pressing print screen and then pasting into an imaging software shows no cursor at all! (it’s supposed to be at the same place as the first photo)

This one taken using another capture software. The mouse cursor is normal?!

I suspect it’s the graphics drivers acting up. Investigation commencing soon!

二哥回答：可以。请便。但如果有任何overtime claim，请不要交给他。他看到的话，就把它丢进垃圾桶。要不，就直接交给大哥。（直接交给大哥没用，因为大哥还是会先给二哥过目）。三弟听了，即刻安静掉，不敢再出声，默默走出二哥房间。

二哥心里想：笨蛋……该死……胜利！